Dear Great Spirit - (tribute to Sean M. Rollnick, Father of our child.)

Dear Great Spirit,

          Thank you. Thank you for choosing me to live this life. Thank you for showing me the way so clearly. Thank you for bringing me joy, happiness, sadness, pain, anger, suffering, blissfulness, sorrow, grief, and all the emotions that come with being a human. Thank you for the rain, the plants, the food, the trees, the sun, and the wind. Thank you for teaching me through peers. Thank you for the experience that is with giving and receiving. Thank you for the faith that you continue to fill me up with, even in times of the heavy emotions. Thank you for the union. Thank you for the reminders of continued growth and strength. Thank you for the lessons that come my way. Thank you for the amazing people you send me in my life, even those I cannot see. Thank you for encouraging me to be the best mommmy I can be. Thank you for teaching me.
     Today I write to you in this way to share with the world our relationship together and to honor a beloved soul who has blessed me with him presence. I humbly bow to you for our continue relationship and partnership. Our relationship is so majestic amongst the rivers, trees, sky, concrete buildings, metal bridges, and crafty spaceships we ride in. The mystery that flows into the very being we all reside in and which I feel is one with you, Great Spirit. You carry me through the dark times reminding me of the silver lining or rainbows that exist with time. You are so happy to carry me through the bright and happy times too, with such ease and grace. Our relationship is sharp like the knives that divide time, carrying me through to you. The cuts that burrow deep in to reflection to reclaim and rebuild the very life and ground we stand on. Really knowing I Am ultimately, rebuilding our relationship with Mother Earth. -The divine feminine scared counterpart of you. I thank you.        @--}---- For giving me the chance to rebuild this relationship with Our Divine Mother Earth. Wow, thank you for choosing me to be a beacon of your light to work on this worldly assignment. I continue to sing praise for our relationship together, Great Spirit.

      This letter is also a cry for help amongst this bodily experience. This school we live can be so hard at times with tests you give that mark my destiny into the realms of Earth. My heart feels heavy at times and my body sore, please show me how to heal the hurt, show me mercy and how to give my body the best treatment. It seems very simple, why do I seem to complicate? To go down roads feeling lost, confused and even bruised. Now I see it clearly, I forget sometimes to listen or feel stubborn and push you away. I am sorry for that, so very sorry. Forgive me for taking the path by listening to a past pattern of fear. I release control, surrender and allow you to work through me. I let go of the reigns to see the unknown by accepting. You mirror all my perfection and bring to me the aspects I cannot see. So that I may mirror them forward with my destiny, thank you. Thank you for listening to me.
    Wow, so now you have my friend with you.... One peer I cannot see... only in everything around me. I give you my trust that you carry his beautiful soul, just as you carry me. The work assignments continue on, I trust. Give him safety and lots of hugs. His body being missed, his touch, his hugs, his kisses....his music lives on with our sacred family, I pray you give the chance for him to sing and dance with you. Please give him a hug and hold him tight, tell him we love him and celebrate his life with joy and remember all the greatness he brought to our Mother Earth. Please help heal my heart of heaviness,  reminding me of his sublime. Mirror of love, I send this prayer with bravery and fierceness as I know they live in you. Thank you, Great Spirit for carrying this message through.
     The time has come to mourn and celebrate a beautiful life. To allow obstacles to become playgrounds. To embrace the ugliness with beauty. The time is now and I thank you. For giving me the now. It is the opportunity to be the greatest version of myself and I see that now. Please continue to show me the way clearly, Great Spirit. Please show me how to live righteously with our Mother Earth. Thank you for being my Father and choosing me to live this life. May you give my beloved friend the opportunity to live life in the way that best accomplishes worldly assignments governed by you.
                                                                                           

                                              With Love and Aloha,
                             Your Daughter

Sean and I met out in kalalau(a secluded sacred place) on Kauai back in October 2014. He held down a community camp at the edge camp and I camped right near the edge camp by the date palm on the bluff. I was living out there for about about six months. Sean and I spent a lot of time together... He was like my brother he became one of my best friend when I was on the island. He was the best listener. I would go to him at moments of darkness and he had the best way to help me feel better....just him being there to listen to me as I vented and he listened and only gave advice if I asked for it..he respected me he respected everyone. I loved I loved loved when he played his guitalele, his voice was one of an Angels. I thanked him so much for bringing the music to the campfire... Always having drums and orchestrating the best drum circles. He was so helpful, always encouraging everyone to do their part in meal making, preparing fire, contributing food, harvesting water... All the things to survive out in the woods. I'll always remember the moment I went to the community camp and asked for rice or quinoa, some sorta of grain to take up valley to prepare meal that night. Lol he said no, omg I was so pissed at him, he told me if u want it, u got to hang out here and eat with us, he said he didn't mind sharing his food but I couldn't take it away and make elsewhere. I didn't vibe with someone that was currently at the camp so I stormed off huffing and puffing pissed that I got rejected.. I looked back to that moment many times and even thank him for standing in his power by not giving into what I wished. He was powerful, he was brave, he was loyal, he was a strong and a lovable man. I was leaving island on July 21 2015, so I created a hui ho(until next time) party at Moloaa bay beach on July 18. He was the only person who purposed a toast for me on my journey and thank me for all the amazing times we shared together. It was so heartfelt and it made tears come to my eyes, I was really going to miss him... The next night we were together and we talked about an ongoing conversation about having a child together and raising the child as an unconventional partnership. Raising the child with love as a platonic relationship. Encouraging the child to be who he or she has come here to be... Sean wanted to be a father and I wanted to be a mother but we didn't share the intimate feelings as most mommies and daddies do. We both agreed that I would be the sole provider for the child because I knew that's what I wanted, Sean on the other hand didn't know how he wanted to show up in the relationship, he didn't want to promise me income or housing... He liked his lifestyle. I said all I want is you to follow your heart and that is right for us, the biggest gift is life and if u choose to do that I would be forever grateful. We both felt peace come when we talked about doing it and when we talked about the future. We also spoke and agreed that I could take our child back to mainland for part of the year to visit and be with family. The next night at Moloaa bay beach it was only Sean and I and the mysterious sacred bay. July 19, 2015 Sean and I came together in the most profound way. He gave me his seed to birth Cheyenne. We were only together once, that night. I left island on July 21, flew to Florida and three weeks later I got a positive pregnancy test. Wow I was pregnant, and sooooo happy.... Sean on the other hand was sooooo nervous . I came back to the island on November 23 2015. Sean was absent most of the time, living in the valley... Man I wanted to go In there but being pregnant I wanted to protect myself and this child so I didn't go in... He was being Sean as I knew him, living in the present moment, I never really knew what was going on with him because when I would ask he was always doing good, and he only came around when he was excited about life and happy or in good moods. Then when I was about 38 weeks pregnant, Sean confessed his love for me, and how he wanted to be with me.... In fact he was pretty pushy at times with his love, I pushed back. I still had no intimate feelings and expressed this to him and wanted to honor my heart. I appreciated him being honest with me and expressing his heart. He was truly trying. He even rented a room in the town I lived in Kekaha with his friends Davy and Chrissy. I was very proud of him bc he was following his heart. We got into arguments like people do in any relationship and he said some awful things about me to his family in NJ, in which he confessed to me in doing so... After we made up, He said he would he would tell them the truth about me and our relationship. He and I had cleared the air between us and went back to our heart space reassuring neither one of us were out to get the other. We loved each other deeply in profound way.... He trusted my ability to raise this child. He told me he didn't trust himself to be able to.... I encouraged him to keep following his heart and that we will always be here arms open. Wow, I was so amazed at the love he gave Cheyenne,so much love-- he loved her so much, I looked forward to our life sharing partnership with raising this child. During our heated times there were some mean things we said and did to each other... I confess I'm definitely not perfect, we were mirrors in so many ways reflecting hurt with hurt.... All in all, love always won with us and still will.. Our last days and months together were for the most part filled with so much love and acceptance, we were all growing together. Cheyenne will always know what a great man her father was and how much he loved her. I don't know what happened that day his body passed over God although I do know and feel in my heart that he is at peace now and he is showing up in the way that his heart can and that is all that matters. May his legacy live on through Cheyenne. God bless you Sean and thank you for giving the world Cheyenne. He would look so deeply into our eyes and give us the most heartfelt thank you and tell us how thankful he was for us. I'm here for anyone , open book for any questions and I'd really love to add that if there's any stories or things you know about Sean please share , or keep in touch for the future when Cheyenne gets old enough so we can share with her. I've also created an email for her to receive any photos or videos u may have of him. Please send to her email.

Cheyennefayehunter@gmail.com

Support The Entry of An Earth Angel

Aloha from Kauai, HI!!

Wow, What an adventure life is and WOW how thankful I am to be alive everyday enjoying this journey! Measurement can not add up to the amount of gratitude I have in my heart for everyday that goes by. This little baby growing inside of my body is a female and she named herself Cheyenne. I had a named picked out for a girl before I found out her sex and one day while meditating/communicating with this baby spirit I heard. "my name is not Siahna, I AM CHEYENNE. Very clearly very strong she came through with this message. I am like WOW, okay so boy or girl- Cheyenne it is! Once I found out that she was a girl I announced on Facebook Cheyenne Faye is a girl, my mom contacted me and said "Did you know that your dad and I almost named you Cheyenne Faye?!," NOPE sure did not know that or even think about naming her Cheyenne, and I am not even sure if she like Cheyenne Faye. <3 Powerful little being she is already. 

I am loving being on Kauai during this time of our lives. Remaining present and thankful for everything that this land and her people gift to us. We are so thankful to be on this island to give our service and love to in return. We (Cheyenne and I) are staying on land in a small farming town called Moloaa with a couple Earth Angels. Since I returned onto the island in November I have been residing in my van traveling around doing projects and working in different areas of the island, feeling out where the land wanted us to be to invest energy into. So thankful that we have landed in Moloaa for the birth. I got hired at an amazing Kava Bar that is a shockingly refreshing health/wellness bar. It is under new management and we are in the process of a great integration. It feels really good to be apart of that integration and be able to invest our energy into something we believe in. I am taking it easy though really pursuing that relaxation time for Cheyenne and I. I must say though through out this pregnancy to relax and rest has been an ultimate challenge although I feel the importance of it and am honoring us both to maintain that balance of work/rest. 

As of right now I have been seeing a western doctor in Kapaa, Hi. I do not plan on having her in a hospital though, I am going to keep up with check ups and doing the normal tests to make sure she is healthy and that I am healthy. All is great. The pregnancy is going really great; we are very healthy. I do not have a midwife yet, although I am excited to speak with one and see if it is right for us. I visualize us being out in nature and around people we love. Water birth is a perfect integration from womb to water to air and we are excited to experience this. The cost for a midwife here is 1600$ and right now I don't have that and I really wanted to reach out to the community and give the opportunity for people we love to help support in any way possible. Also we are still needing some vital things such as a car seat, warmer clothes, soft/warm blankets, cloth diapers, cloth diaper pins, soaps that are gentle for Cheyenne, baby bath tub,baby slings/carrying cloth, baby swing, and anything comfortable Mommy will need during this integration. My mailing address is PO BOX 950 Kekaha Hi 96752, if anyone feels called to send anything. I really do not want any toys for her being that I do not have space to store them until she's old enough to play with them. I already have a lot of stuff so everything I listed is what I need as of right now and will return to update as I receive. <3 thank you Family and Friends !!!! 

                                                                   

Invest In yourSelf, Love On YourSelf, Be With YourSelf

I woke up one morning asking myself, Would I hire myself for a career? Yes, absolutely, you bet your bottom dollar I would hire myself. So that was the day that I decided to hire ME to work for myself. I learned since that day I have attracted more opportunities that line up with who I truly am and why I chose to come here. I realized that loving on myself,  truly be present with myself and investing in myself by doing what I love, The Universe pays. I will give you 5 tips that really help me along this ongoing process that may help you!!...


1. LOVE WHAT YOU DO

No matter if it is washing the dishes, doing laundry, walking your dog, hiking, working, planting a garden, sitting on facebook, watching tv, reading a book, you get the idea..... LOVE what you choose to do...... This life is absolutely, way too short and why not enjoy every moment of it? Even the moments of great challenge, pain or suffering..... enjoy that you are a human being in the midst of the journey, completing each task. By doing what you love you are choosing to invest in yourself and the reason why you are here!  

2. BE A HUMAN BEING
This action based world sometimes gets in the way of us just being who we came here to be. We do not have to do anything because everything is already provided for. I noticed with myself, worrying about the future and where food/water was going to come from, if I am going to get married, where to get winter clothes hand-me-downs, etc. I also noticed that worrying was creating the lack that I would see in my life at times. I am thankful I am reminded we live in an abundant world in the now.  I recommend Living in the now, being grateful, knowing/feeling that you have food/water/money already, enjoying every moment and TRUSTing that there is an abundance of food/water in here for everyone. The thoughts and feelings of fulfillment, blissfulness, thankfulness, love, trust and faith cause the abundant world to flow to us effortlessly.

3. LIVE IN THE NOW
I dare you to consciously breathe deep and relax. Look around you right now. Stop reading for however long and look around you, energetically thank everything you see around you. Whether it be people, trees, walls, tables, windows, animals etc just send them loving gratitude for being present with you in this moment. Be with yourself fully and feel your body and how miraculous it is. There is no other moment but this one. Lets give thanks to this very moment and the air we have to breathe. Life is a gift and realizing this allows us to remain in our power. 

4. LIFE IS A GIFT 
Seeing and feeling life as a gift gives you the outlook that we are presents and we play important roles for this planet. Life is lifting you to the greatest heights of your entire being if only you allow it. Remember we are gifts to this universe and we have the power to help shape it with our thoughts and feelings. This Universe is a gift to us and believing that this Universe loves us and supports us on every level will pay into the investment of your self. We are all investments and by choosing to invest in ourself, we give the time to ourself we deserve and we can truly live free and happy all over! Remembering this gives us the chance to really love on ourselves!! 

5. STAND IN YOUR POWER

You live in this universe with so many people and share the same air as all the generations here now and before. You are tested with how much you really love yourself daily. We are all born with the power of God, living and breathing through us, working miracles through us. Although sometimes you may receive suggestions and influence from other people that may not be for your highest good. So you must remember to, tune into yourself, setting clear boundaries, say no when appropriate, and communicate your feelings to remain in your power. Meditation in nature and solitude time will help you gain a better feel of your own energy because without this you are taking on other people's energy. Clear yourself from other's pain and take ownership of your own suffering and choose to let it go by consciously sending  it to mother nature. She is waiting to receive what we are willing to give. Stand in your power and speak your truth, give thanks for this sovereign power, and be present with it. 


These are just a few helpful reminders that have helped me stay in tune with the rhythmic flow of our abundant universe. Hiring ourself to do any task that we absolutely love doing is an investment in ourselves'. Loving on ourselves' so much that we set clear boundaries with other people by getting enough solitude time we deserve. We deepen our true self connection by knowing we are never truly alone in the world, we are allOne. If you every need anyone to talk to and want a free consultation I am a certified life coach that would love to help with any life situations that you may feel stuck in. Remember you are never stuck anywhere, you are always free and a sovereign being. It is our birth right! With love, Shawnee Faye
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I'M PREGNANT!!

SO GRATEFUL!!!

              Dear Friends and Family,
              Yes! I have a little baby growing inside me. :-) I think that it is a perfect time to share this, oh so wonderful news, I am 11 weeks pregnant and due in April. I am sharing with the world to introduce my intentions and to sum up a quick version of where I am in my life. Most of you reading this have watch me transform on a grand scale, into many different versions of my greatest self. I am always changing and for the best, thank you GOD. Thank you ALL for showing me love and support by commenting, liking, sending me uplifting encouragement, and being the amazing human beings you are! I wouldn't be here writing this blog today, if it were not for my friends and family inspiring me to keep on shining. I am posting some pictures to show my transformation to just give you the tiniest idea of the intense transformation I have been through in the last 3 years of my life (really started on December 21,2012).

2011 before any known spiritual awakening....

November 2012 at an event, a month before the huge spiritual awakening.

March 2013, after the huge spiritual awakening and many more to come!! 

Florida trip January 2014 visiting family and friends..... LOTS OF REALIZATIONS about my life and the direction to go..

February 2014 First time to Kauai for 2 months of intense spiritual awakenings! 

Back to Asheville and shaved my hair off BALD on May 17th, this was HUGE for me. This picture was taken in July 2014.

I felt the call to go back to Kauai, this is September 2014 on the Napali Trail to Kalalau.

Living off the land completely away from civilization in Kalalau February 2015

April 2015 on Kauai in Polihale after 6 months(off and on) of living in Kalalau, absolutely intense transformations from living out there.

Back to Blue Ridge Mountains in August 2015 and PREGNANT 4 weeks here!

Why do you feel this is part of your path, Shawnee?

 I always felt myself having an unconventional pregnancy and relationship/relationships to break patterns of generational upbringings. I feel myself writing a book about how to be a single mom, even if I am in an intimate relationship one day. I believe that we are all one yes, but we were given our own paths, our own bodies and our own duties. No matter who we are with in partnership, no matter what path we are on it always comes down to the lesson of self love. How can we be the greatest version of our self? Are we completing our own tasks we came here to do? Whether we share tasks or not we all came here to grow. Just as each tree grows tall, separately, their roots still touch and they breathe the same air.  All the lessons I am learning and continuing to learn have all been wrapped around these questions of self love and the lessons have been challenging as they are all growing pains. I know that raising a child is not an easy task, and I am brave and as ready as I will ever be to take on this duty. I understand that I do not own this child, GOD is the true creator and I am only a vessel to guide, teach and learn every second with this child/adult. I intend on encouraging this being to be who he/she came here to be. (I have a feeling it's a boy, so I will refer to him) I will ask him engaging questions everyday, Who are you? Why did you choose to come here? I feel so honored that he chose me to be his mommy. I always said I am going to be the best mommy in the world. During my transformation, I have learned that I am already a mommy to everyone's inner child and I will continue to be one. Including to my own inner child <3 We are all single parents because we all have our individual puzzle piece that goes in the puzzle, all coming together to realize that we have a larger puzzle to complete. To raise our children to be brave, courageous strong leaders of their own personal power. No matter if we are in intimate relationships or single we are all powerful creatures with ability to create and fulfill the task that we came here to do. So thankful to have this chance to do so.

WHERE YA AT NOW, SHAWNEE??!!

I am in Asheville, NC right now and intend on giving birth here in the mountains. I want to be near family and tribe here on the mainland. I have been torn whether or not to go back to the island. The best way I have been making decisions is to listen to the signs of the Universe, by asking for clear signs to be shown.  Clear signs have been showing up daily and I am receiving feelings of confirmation from this little being and his guides, to be here in these mountains. I dream of owning a tiny home one day and I am excited to build one here on a nice piece of property in the mountains outside of Asheville and live off grid. Life has so many turns and hills that I am so grateful for, and everyday that goes by just gets better and better. Even those really emotional hormonal days that I cry are blessings. Yes, I am scared, yes, I am TERRIFIED to give birth, but I know that I am supported and will have a healthy labor.  I know one of my tasks is to be a strong mother who will accept love and support from the whole community. I know that I am provided for everyday by God, the cosmos and by Mother Earth. I practice daily, moment to moment to stay completely present in the now, to hear the sounds around me fully, the listen to the call in each moment, to love myself fully, to be completely thankful for these lives given, and most of all to live love from within. Of course this is a practice and can sometimes get off track at times, I appreciate all the reminders to get back on that I am always receiving. 

WHO'S THE DADDY?(added after original post was written)

His name is Sean M. Rollink, I called him Seany boy and he called me Shawnee girl. Sean and I met out in kalalau valley on the island of Kauai back in October 2014. He held down a community camp at the edge camp and I camped right near the edge camp by the date palm on the bluff. I was living out there for about about six months. Sean and I spent a lot of time together... He was like my brother he became one of my best friend when I was on the island. He was the best listener. I would go to him at moments of darkness and he had the best way to help me feel better....just him being there to listen to me as I vented and he listened and only gave advice if I asked for it..he respected me he respected everyone. I loved I loved loved when he played his guitalele, his voice was one of an Angels. I thanked him so much for bringing the music to the campfire... Always having drums and orchestrating the best drum circles. He was so helpful, always encouraging everyone to do their part in meal making, preparing fire, contributing food, harvesting water... All the things to survive out in the woods. I'll always remember the moment I went to the community camp and asked for rice or quinoa, some sorta of grain to take up valley to prepare meal that night. Lol he said no, omg I was so pissed at him, he told me if u want it, u got to hang out here and eat with us, he said he didn't mind sharing his food but I couldn't take it away and make elsewhere. I didn't vibe with someone that was currently at the camp so I stormed off huffing and puffing pissed that I got rejected.. I looked back to that moment many times and even thank him for standing in his power by not giving into what I wished. He was powerful, he was brave, he was loyal, he was a strong and a lovable man. I was leaving island on July 21 2015, so I created a hui ho(until next time) party at Moloaa bay beach on July 18. He was the only person who purposed a toast for me on my journey and thank me for all the amazing times we shared together. It was so heartfelt and it made tears come to my eyes, I was really going to miss him... The next night we were together and we talked about an ongoing conversation about having a child together and raising the child as an unconventional partnership. Raising the child with love as a platonic relationship. Encouraging the child to be who he or she has come here to be... Sean wanted to be a father and I wanted to be a mother although we didn't share the intimate feelings as most mommies and daddies do. We both agreed that I would be the sole provider for the child because I knew that's what I wanted, Sean on the other hand didn't know how he wanted to show up in the relationship, he didn't want to promise me income or housing... He liked his lifestyle. I said all I want is you to follow your heart and that is right for us, the biggest gift is life and if u choose to do that we would be forever grateful. We both felt peace come when we talked about doing it and when we talked about the future. We both agreed that bringing a soul into this world was to encourage this being to be who he or she came here to be. We also spoke and agreed that I could take our child back to mainland for part of the year to visit and be with family. The next night at Moloaa bay beach it was only Sean and I and the mysterious sacred bay. July 19, 2015 Sean and I came together in the most profound way. He gave me his seed to birth Cheyenne. We were only together once, that night. I left island on July 21, flew to Florida and three weeks later I got a positive pregnancy test. Wow I was pregnant, and sooooo happy.... Sean on the other hand was sooooo nervous . I came back to the island on November 23 2015. Sean was absent most of the time, living in the kalalau valley... Man I wanted to go In there but being pregnant I wanted to protect myself and this child so I didn't go in... He was being Sean as I knew him, living in the present moment, I never really knew what was going on with him because when I would ask he was always doing good, and he only came around when he was excited about life and happy or in good moods. Then when I was about 38 weeks pregnant, Sean confessed his love for me, and how he wanted to be with me.... In fact he was pretty pushy at times with his love, I pushed back. I still had no intimate feelings and expressed this to him and wanted to honor my heart. I appreciated him being honest with me and expressing his heart. He was truly trying. He even rented a room in the town I lived in Kekaha with his friends Davy and Chrissy. I was very proud of him because he was following his heart. We got into arguments like people do in any relationship and he said some awful things about me to his family in NJ, in which he confessed to me in doing so... After we made up, He said he would he would tell them the truth about me and our relationship. He and I had cleared the air between us and went back to our heart space reassuring neither one of us were out to get the other. We loved each other deeply in profound way.... He trusted my ability to raise this child. He told me he didn't trust himself to be able to.... I encouraged him to keep following his heart and that we will always be here arms open. Wow, I was so amazed at the love he gave Cheyenne,so much love-- he loved her so much, I looked forward to our life sharing partnership with raising this child in whatever way that was to be. During our heated times there were some mean things we said and did to each other... I confess I'm definitely not perfect, we were mirrors in so many ways reflecting hurt with hurt.... All in all, love always won with us and still will.. Our last days and months together were for the most part filled with so much love and acceptance, we were all growing together. Cheyenne will always know what a great man her father was and how much he loved her. I don't know what happened that day his body passed over God although I do know and feel in my heart that he is at peace now and he is showing up in the way that his heart can and that is all that matters. May his legacy live on through Cheyenne. God bless you Sean and thank you for giving the world Cheyenne. He would look so deeply into our eyes and give us the most heartfelt thank you and tell us how thankful he was for us. I'm here for anyone , open book for any questions and I'd really love to add that if there's any stories or things you know about Sean please share , or keep in touch for the future when Cheyenne gets old enough so we can share with her. I've also created an email for her to receive any photos or videos u may have of him. Please send to her email.

                                               Cheyennefayehunter@gmail.com

(above is added into this post- I had another paragraph in here before he passed, although i deleted it out of spite when we got into a fight.... awe regrets, remorse,blame, shame all those feelings processed...)

HOW YA BEEN FEELING, MAMA???!!

 I found out August 3rd and the pregnancy itself has been super easy so far! I hear so many horrifying stories of symptoms for pregnancy and well I am thankful to say that my symptoms have been soooo small... For the first 7  weeks I was pretty fatigue and slept most days 15 hours or more LOL. The occasional spells of nausea would set in and I breathe really deep and slip into a meditation to clear the feeling of nausea. Only one day of full nausea in which I pretty much did nothing all day but breathe, drink water and rest. I have been taking my folic acid but the prenatal pills the doctor prescribed were really strong and gave me horrible side effects like headaches and nausea, so I stopped taking them. I have been eating SUPER healthy as always, no processed food and no white sugar, gluten, dairy and meat. I have been craving meat like crazy and actually ate red meat after 7 years of not eating to have the outcome of terrible emotional pain the next day and weeks, so I said no it's not worth the pain of crying for the death of an animal.(no judgement to all you meat eaters, either, I am just SUPER sensitive, i love you no matter what you eat lol)  I have been more on top of putting protein in my diet other ways. Balanced diet all around with all my fruits, vegetables, grains, protein, calcium, and I don't know what else I know I'm forgetting something.  My mother had four of her children at home, including myself, and she has been here to help me emotionally and I am so grateful for her help. She gave me awesome advice I am following, such as drinking one cup a day of red raspberry leaf tea for the first trimester then 2 cups for the 2nd and 3 cups for the 3rd because it helped her to have only 1 1/2-2hr long labors. She also reminded me to visualize mandalas and it will help with the pregnancy and labor. Thank you,  Momma Dukes! SO thankful for my awesome health. 

SUPPORT FULLY ACCEPTED!!, HOW CAN YOU HELP SUPPORT?

I do not want to have your convientional baby shower that people have for a few reasons...... My friends and family are all scattered everywhere.....I do not want anything purchased brand new from stores.... We live in such a consumer world that I want hand-me-downs, second hand or creations from old fabric, or donations so I can hire a seamstress to create some items we will need. Plus the baby grows so fast, it's just silly to buy brand new except maybe a few items that will have to be bought brand new. (clothe diapers I will purchase brand new for obvious reason and maybe not lol, if anyone has those let me know)  I am asking for donations in general if you would like to give whatever you can to help me get prepared for this angel coming. I am working everyday in different ways to generate income and am saving for the baby. I have a long list of everything I need to receive, including a vehicle and house, so every penny counts. If you or someone you know have baby stuff that is not being used anymore, let me know, ship to the house that I am house sitting for the winter or hold onto it for until I get my own place. I am so thankful that I have this opportunity to sit this house and be provided for right now. After the house sitting opportunity, it is still unknown as to where our house will be, although I have faith the perfect place will present itself! Walking into the unknown has become very comfortable for me even though at times it's scary; taking the path less traveled has been worth every step. I think I wrote a book today and summing this up with a HUGE thank you for the support all over!! When the time gets closer (Apirl due date) If you are in a position to donate I GREATLY appreciate it and will post many many pictures online to show everyone what I am investing in :) Thank you for sharing as well. <3 The donation button is at the top of the page and will go directly into my paypal account, (you do not need a paypal just a credit/debit card.) Omg so nervous to post this but SO EXCITED to receive the love from everyone.... <3 <3 If anyone know of any doulas or midwives here in the Asheville area, please also let me know! Onward marching forward!! Bringing a beautiful angel into this world is the most rewarding blessing I have ever been gifted. Excited to continue being a MOMMY!!!! <3 

I LOVE YOU ALL WITH MY ENTIRE BEING. 

Shawnee's Virtual Baby Shower Baby Due April 2016 Thank you!

We are the land- We Love - We are the Future- We choose

Aloha, 
Dear family and friends,
It's been almost a year since I have written and I feel deeply to write and share! Time away from sharing has been healthy. I have been able to go deep inside myself and well, love who I am more. Of course this is a daily practice, for everyday I am getting better and better, always doing the best that I can in this self love enhancing path. I am learning that as I shift more and more to love and accepting each layer that appears, I break free of all self created walls. I feel the more that I love and feel myself, the ripples of self love continue to grow for others. I have been here on Kauai for nearly a year and have been able to grow some roots.... .of course the roots have not been in one exact spot, for I have been traveling this tiny island listening to the land and feeling where my energy needs to be. I have been initiating, helping with and completing projects on the west side, north side and in Kalalau valley.

I started out in Kalalau... kalalau is a very sacred place and only few are truly called to go and spend time there and I feel special  to have been called. She definitely assisted in my whole growth process and I am so thankful. It is totally off grid and far away from any stores or roads and well, most people. I  planted papaya trees all over in the valley and got them started growing very well. I did transplants of plants that do not need any maintence after being planted. Momma will take care of the rest. I learned to play the ukulele and have been practicing nearly everyday. I healed dis-associations I had created and became one with myself again. I died and was reborn and well, still dying to be reborn daily. I was going in the valley right before the new moon setting clear intentions and then hiking out a day or two after full moon. Then getting supplies while on the outs, checking the internet and still staying in tune and balance with responsibilities.  I did that from September until March. Minus the two months that I stayed on a lucrative farm in Kilauea and learned a lot about organic farming and permaculture in November and December.

After the Kalalau adventure, I met some really amazing people at a festival and was called to go manage land on the west side of Kauai. Near the place where I landed first when I came to the island in February 2014. This land was very special and is owned by a very special lady who was troubled at the time. She found herself in the hospital for over two months and was battling life and death. She has 4 acres that needed cared for and two shitzui puppies who also needed care. The people I met and I took the responsibility of these large tasks. We organized and cleaned, we went inside ourselves by meditating a lot, we built simple structures to help us maintain a simple and easy community, and we planted a garden. We were unsure about the future and the hopes of this land, always remaining present and asking the land what it wanted, while tuning into what the owner of the land would want. Thank God the land owner got better and of course wanted her babies back and is now in Washington getting better all around. 

I met an amazing man who I instantly stood in love with and still standing in love with. He invited me to live in Kilauea on this land that is called to grow into a small intentional community and farm. A very sacred place with amazing people, animals, visions, missions, goals and aspirations. There are so many projects to become involved with and so far, I am helping to build a music studio, planting and maintaining gardens and landscaping with the land. I feel honored to be surrounded by such loving, supporting and clear beings in this community. 
I leave the island in about a month to road trip on the mainland to visit family and friends. I also have clear intentions to visit other intentional communities and farms to grow and learn with. Going from Florida, North Carolina, Texas and then off to California. I have intentions on coming back to the land here on Kauai and being apart of more projects that are taking place. 
 I am so thankful that the Aina(land in Hawaiian) has called me to all these parts of her being. I feel honored and excited to have been able to help create and be apart of such amazing projects each place I land. Tuning into the land has been the largest lesson I have learned on this path here on Kauai. Communicating what she wants and not what our own egos want. Being reminded to create ways to give back to future generations. We all have a choice in this life no matter where we are. The choices are simple. Are we giving back to the future families or are we taking from them? I write this and share my life which is ultimately only a story but with great purpose and reminders. Our actions really do have an impact on these very large realities of our ENTIRE being. All our hearts are joined and opening more everyday. Accepting the tasks that are giving daily and in each present moment is what really can make the difference of how we as a whole, have been living. Let's work together as a team and make the steps in to creating a sustainable future for our future generations. 
Ask yourself are ready to:
*composting your food, or if you are not gardening yourself delivering your compost weekly to a local community garden or neighbors that are gardening. This is gardeners' gold and trust me they will be super thankful to receive your compost. 
*recycling..... this is important because WHY not take the time to do this... ?? you can even get PAID to recycle in certain states! recycling does matter...
*Supporting local businesses instead of larger corporations.... no matter how much cheaper it is to go to walmart PLEASE dont ..if small businesses do not have what you looking for, look craigslist, your neighbor might have it. BE patient! our future generations will be so thankful for this- intuition is nudging me to say this.... trust.... 
*Supporting local farmers markets- Take the time to find out where yours is at and go weekly. Our farmers work so hard to have fresh local produce available and TRUST me, it is hard work. When you support them, it FEELS sooooo rewarding. <3 Support farms that are chemical free....trust your instincts.
*Drink healthy clean water from living water. Find a local spring in your area and fill up weekly.. Stop buying plastic !! Plastic is definitely taking from our future.... get a good water filter for your tap water, there are many great ones out there. Buy glass water jugs instead of plastic...

This is just a few reminders, dont want to overload ya with adjustments. If you are already doing these practices of healthy living THANK YOU. Our future thanks you. Being aware and conscious of where your money is going is so key into giving back to our land. If you have any questions on how to do this in your life PLEASE I AM BEGGING YOU, ASK ME. I am an open book waiting and willing to be contacted to help. It is what I do. I am a servant of the land and anyway I can help, I will. I am practicing these ways and so thankful I have been encouraged to do so. I am so thankful for the people who answered my questions and who still are answering my questions, because trust me I aint got it all figured out. Life is my school and I have no shame in asking "silly" questions. It is the only way to know. Do your research too and collaborate your own bottom line and trust your gut! 

Thank you all for reading, and please share! Love goes out to all of you~ <3 Shawnee Faye 

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In this race we begin to face

The Love that is all around us 

Kukui nuts are soo hilarious

When they are falling all around us

The fairy knows the truth of all

& Elf stands strong against the fog

Know love is all around us 

The time & space is all erased

& Parallel worlds will finds us

The time spelled backwards is emit

& Balancing frequencies will exist 

That we know is all around us 

Now take deep breaths and know

Butterflies & moss on carpets glow

The race we live is mere intention 

Kukuis know it's not a competition!

Written by Shawnee in Kalalau Valley 10/12/14

thank you for the photo Nadine May, check out website please! ( www.nadinemay.com ) :)

(Kukui is light in Hawaiian)

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Roots Gotta Grow Deep For The Tree to Rise

Aloha Dear Family,

         Thank you for being here as my support team, family, lovers, friends, and as fellow beings in this evolution of integration and gratitude manifestations. We are all transforming and I want to share my journey of transformation with you all to help inspire, to help encourage, and to help our growth of connectedness. Alot has been going on in my life and I have been following my heart while remaining true to my core. Thankfully, I am together with the feminine Goddess I Am. It has been a rollercoaster of ups and downs, knowing the journey is the funnest part of this life, which is another reason I want to share. I am pleased to say that I am headed back to Kauai, Hawaii on September 3rd. Earlier this year I separated with a dear lover because I felt like our assignment was complete. I was also no longer honoring my soul purpose in South Carolina. I moved to Kauai and lived there from February until April and had a growing journey there.  By April 22nd, (while the lunar eclipse and crazy stuff happening all over) I flew back into Asheville Nc to experience this rollercoaster of a life in the Blue Ridge Mountains. I had to fully close some doors in relationships that were no longer serving me. All in love for each person from the deepest of my being. It was hard to understand because of course there will be pain there.... although knowing the separations were very healthy and honorable on both sides.

Coming back here has allowed me to see that I am not fulfilling my life purpose by choosing to work at places I had previous experience in(serving and customer service). I am already an inspirational leader and motivational speaker and am excited about the path I have in this field. I learned that doing what I love and loving what I do leaves room for continued miracles. I came back to the mountains to realize that all the answers already live inside me and I am powerful enough to hire myself as my own boss. I am so thankful for all the people that are in my life also doing what they love. We are creating win win situations that help create support teams of entrepreneurs. We have each other to learn/grow from, to ask questions and to build a supportive community to grow in. I am courageous to let myself live where I feel my heart is the most happiest. I will also speak up when no one else may have the courage to do so and I will be strong so others may lean on me for support. By coming back and closing the doors of energies that no longer served me I allowed myself to really receive love. To fully receive gifts when they are given and to receive the abundance that is already present in each moment. I share because I care and learn that through communication we evolve and do what most fear to do. I am the voice of every person that may not be able to find the words of remembrance and I love to do so. This is my soul purpose and feels great to finally realize after 27 years. 

When I flew to Kauai this year I felt in my heart that it was my home and when I was called to come back I was confused, lost and scared. I knew I did not fully know why I was coming back although I did know that Great Mystery would inform me with perfect timing. I had an inner trust in the flow and to the surrender of what was and that really allowed me to listen to the call. By coming back to the mainland I have allowed myself to trust my inner ear,  to trust my intuition and to trust Mother Gaia; also all her creatures that are always giving signs. During this integration, I have literally cut everything I own in half now only possessing a few boxes of pictures/precious items/clothes and feel great about that. I shaved my hair releasing old habits and energetic patterns that were causing discord in my life and those around me.(see I'm BALD blog written back in May) I have been able to realize that I am worthy of working for people that truly honor me as a human being and not someone who is making them money. I got to volunteer all summer for The "Farmacy" Juice and Health Tonic Bar in West Asheville and am super blessed to have gotten to experience the love that happens there. I love Judy and Carl and will always refer anyone there, because they really do care about every person that supports them. Although,  I did worked a few jobs in Asheville that were not serving me on my path, so I moved forward and learned some lessons. I also realized that I was not honoring myself on my path by paying rent to an apartment complex in which I did not know where the profits were going to. Meanwhile I have been couch-surfing and doing work exchanges that create win win situations for all parties. I chip in financially where financial need is fair and I am always giving/receiving equally in every situation. By being money conscious, I have been asking before purchasing or monetary engagement, who's energy is my energy benefiting? My whole perceptions are changing by shifting my thoughts toward life and being involved with life. If you have been reading about my life, you have learned I have not always been this way which is part of what is. This is all apart of the transformation I have been going through since December 21 2012. It has built my strength to be more fully aware of where I am choosing to give/receive energy. I now support local businesses, buy from local farmers markets, live in a chemical free environment, volunteer with the community, and encourage others to inspire as well. We are the ripples in the Universe that truly do witness miracles in every present moment.

I also got to attend an Earth skills gathering here in NC called Firefly and learned all about beekeeping, nature navigating 101, tantra sex, wild nature making clay pottery, and let go of self doubt in the fire during the ceremony of releasing. Gratifly Transformational Festival was another amazing experience I had and help out with the water filtration system with Go Fresh House. I danced to Zach Deputy and Rising Appalachia, chanted Hare Krsna with family, drank tea in the Tea Infusion Lounge, got healed in the New Earth Sacred Temple with a shamanic healer with family, and got to hug and grow with a Grandmother Elder from a Native American Tribe. I was able to sweat two times in a lakota tribal ceremony on sacred land in Fairview NC. The dear servant of humanity, Adam,  pours the lodges and am super blessed to have met him. Upon returning to Asheville I was able to receive a shamanic healing from Shamanic Healer, Benjamin Bernstein and healed some layers of past sexual trauma I have been through in this life and past lives. I am also attending Soulshine Festival in Burnsville Nc next week on August 15th.

WOW,  all of this I am so thankful for, and it reminds me of who I am and why I am here. I am super thankful for reminders from support teams who I call soul family. I have been being reminded to be gentle on myself and not be so hard at times. The bottom line being we are not in control at all and when we surrender, it allows us to be whole, feel pain and fully feel our emotions, instead of pushing them away or resisting emotions. We are just vessels of this love to pour forth from. This is why it is so vital to be true to our hearts being that our hearts are the reason we are alive. I am where I am today by following the sweet small voice of my heart and feeling the emotions of my higher self to help guide me with all eyes open. We are here to journey along with families, to grow and learn together.


No matter how hard things get, remember to keep walking and to live your life as if you are walking on fire in moments of challenges. Once you stop walking, you and the people behind your has to stop and endure the heat, so instead of stopping and hesitating, keep walking until the coldness of Mother Earth's heartbeat saves you. Keep walking until the challenges become welcomed and fear becomes the very thing that drives us and becomes our servant.  I feel like for the past two years I have been traveling and floating around like a tree seed in the wind just waiting to be buried by love of the Universe to grow roots in the tree that I am. I am excited to meet up with Kauai again, start growing and surrendering to the Universal flow in harmony with the creatures that inhabit this being.


In Kauai I look forward to building or contributing in organic gardens all over the island. I am excited to reunite with Soul family that I have there and excited to grow with them while my roots grow. I am super excited to meet Gates, Alisha and G's newborn and to help out at the juice bar on the west coast if needed. Also to see Macky Ray and say hi to all the people who helped guide me in the right direction. I also look forward to attending the Wild Sacred Women Retreat in Maui on October 17 during my 27th birthday for one whole week. I am super stoked about this because I never attended a retreat before and I know I will benefit largely from it! On my journey I have realized that there will come a time when I am ready to settle down and grow some roots and that time has arrived!  I am thankful, oh so thankful and am here to remind you that when you remain thankful for all the small things, the larger gifts come pouring in. When we honor our heart and our soul purpose of being alive at this time we are honor Our home, Mother Gaia, honoring our families, ancestors, and honoring all of life. If anyone has any questions or wants to talk to me about some of the tools and resources I used to get where I am today,call or email. I am literally an open book willing to help anyone who comes to me. Mahalo Ke Akua and Aloha Dear Family. See you all soon!!